From the beginning

Hi everyone,

I thought I would give blogging a try to share my journey of getting the 'real me' back, I want to share it with you to show if I can do it so can you !

I have always been overweight since I can remember, as a teenager  in year 10 I decided I'd had enough and I wanted to change myself so I joined the local gym and lost about 15 kgs and for the first time ever fit in a size 12 and I felt happy with my weight and my self esteem grew as the years went on my weight went up and down and so did my happiness and self esteem.

I did sucessfully lose lose about 20kgs on one of the 'diet shake' brands in my early 20's which is roughly around the time when I met my first and only serious boyfriend who grew to be my best friend and my fiancé then husband in 2009.

Slowly by slowly my weight crept back and I was around 100kgs when I fell pregnancy with our son 12 mths later, by the end of my pregnancy I was suffering from severe preeclampsia with a dangerously high blood pressure to the point where I had to be induced 3 weeks early as my doctors were worried I would have a stroke at age 25 if my blood pressure was to go any higher.

I really struggled with recovering from a ceasarian and strong blood pressure medication side effects after Ryan's birth which also meant my weight just kept going up .

By Ryan's 1st birthday I was at my heaviest and deep down I knew that but I just didn't do anything about it.


A few weeks later a relative posted some pictures on Facebook of Ryan's birthday and I just burst into tears to look at myself this was a very depressing sad moment in my life but also a significant one as I turned to my husband and told him how I was feeling and that I wanted to make a change.

So a week later I joined my local womens gym, I was so nervous about my first assessment as I knew they were going to make me do that thing I avoided at all costs ......... Getting on the scales

So as I nervously stepped on the figure 108.4kg came up and all of a sudden I felt tiny with embarrassment and sadness. 

I went full stream ahead with working out from there in up to 5 sessions a week for the next 4 mths and occasionally I would get on the scales at the gym and the most I ever saw was a 300g loss and every time it was devastating I was working so hard and although I felt better in myself  I knew something was really missing in this picture.

Still at 108kgs I started to lose my motivation to workout and I began going less and less to the gym.

We went on a family holiday to Fiji in May 2012 for my best friends wedding and again when we got home I was devasted to look at the photos from our holiday to look at how over weight I was.


Shortly after we got home I fell pregnant with our daughter and things really spiralled down hill from there for my health, I was still on blood pressure medication from my preeclampsia with my last pregnancy and at 14 weeks I got the first warning from my doctor that I needed to take it easy or I would be on bed rest for the rest of my pregnancy by 16 weeks my medication was increased and another warning.

By 20 weeks my medications was increased again and I was told if things didn't stabilise I would be admitted to hospital for the next 4mths

By the time Avery was born I had been in and out of hospital numerous time and was on the maximum dosage of blood pressure meds.

7 weeks after giving birth by ceasarian for the second time my mother in law bought me some clothes for my birthday and upon trying them on I again I had another moment where I was just devasted at
way I looked and felt.

I had been watching the way an old school friend on Facebook had lost a lot of weight and she really inspired me to do the same ( Thank you Hayley Mether ) so I decided I would sign up for  Michelle Bridges 12wbt.

To be continued - Round 2, 2013 12wbt